MYSELF
So scared of my own feelings and what they hold.
Tears only drop when no one is looking.
I push them away not meaning too.
It hurts too bad to look around and be alone.
I lock myself away with no key,
Because then no one would have to face me.
I hide behind my poetry as if it will be a protector.
Somewhere there is a place of hope for someone like myself,
But that place is too far away for me to reach.
I feel corrupted and hated by everyone around.
Knowing it isn't normal to feel this way.
Sometimes I feel like this shouldn't be real,
And I am hurting more than just me.
I want to close my eyes and pretend that
I am something more than everyone sees.
For that to happen I have to search myself long and hard.
I have to find it somewhere in myself to believe.
Sami Beth